Working full time with 2 kids… is really fucking hard. I don’t really know how else to say it. It’s just the truth of it.
I’m trying to put a positive spin on everything, but when you are exhausted to the core and overwhelmed, it’s just about impossible. Overall my thought: things are not going well at all. Like, At All. Even if the kids were sleeping better at night (one of them is always up too much), I still don’t think it would be going well.
I told myself that I would get through this until Jan. 1 and then I’d re-evaluate the situation and see what needs to happen. I’ve been browsing jobs online, but the problem is that there really aren’t any work options here for me if I stay in the same field and I haven’t seen any full time work from home options. I feel really stuck right now. But again, I would still want to wait till the end of the year before making any drastic decisions or moves or whatever. I just want to vent a little (or a lot).
Because I find myself at home more often, I decided to finally bite the bullet and find a new hair salon. I love the stylist I’ve had for like 10 years but she recently relocated to a new salon and I didn’t like it at all and it was less convenient than before. I had really huge doubts that I could get a good haircut out here in the middle of nowhere, and I don’t know why I thought that. It’s obviously a huge blanket statement to say that hair stylists here are not as good as on Newbury Street. Anyhow, I went to a new salon and got my hair cut and I’d give it a solid B. She was nice, it was pleasant, the salon was OK I kind of wish she had stopped cutting to ask how I felt about things as she went, but whatever, she didn’t but it was fine. The only part about my haircut that I didn’t like is that I wish she hadn’t messed with my bangs, oh well whatever though. I think I’m just really picky about how I like my bangs to be. Then they rang me up…. and it was $40. 4-0. I’ve been paying $80 for my haircuts and that was discounted pricing, like I was still getting a sorority discount from a million years ago. A solid B haircut for $40 and I was able to make the appointment pretty easily and it was only 5 miles away. SOLD. It’s super funny that right now my husband gets a far more expensive haircut on Newbury and I’m the one that has taken a step down to a 4-0 haircut in a mini-mall next to a Market Basket and a Panera… my soccer mom transformation is starting today. I probably shouldn’t even mention that I bought jeans at Old Navy recently and when I put them on yesterday for the first time after washing them, my immediate reaction was: why are these so high? Total mom jeans to match my mom haircut. WHY LIFE?! Just Why?