Swedish Meatballs Mixed with Anxiety

I seriously could eat this Ikea Swedish meatball lunch with ligonberry soda for lunch every single day of my life.  It’s not that it’s $5, although it helps, I just really really love the combination of the meatballs – gravy – and ligonberry jam.  I still don’t know what a ligonberry is or why I can’t buy them in the store here in the US.  After an hour of so wandering around Ikea, and getting lost multiple times, I made my way to the cafeteria and ate lunch by myself.  It was very pleasant and peaceful.  I didn’t find exactly what I was looking for at Ikea (curtains or curtain rods) but I did find some storage boxes for baby clothing so I can sort the sizes into boxes and keep track of how much of each phase I have, and a couple picture frames for the walls.  Most of our walls are still completely bare, so here’s to a $9.99 solution.
After my trip to Ikea, and fantastic lunch, I headed over to Target nearby to continue my search for curtains and curtain rods.  I had a little bit more luck there – if only to rule out the rods that I originally really liked.  I did find a throw blanket on sale to add a much needed splash of color to the family room, it needs a lot more though, like omg.  I think many decorators would call this room a “blank slate”.  I’m working on it.  I think that my nesting phase has officially begun – only out of necessity.  I’m really starting to get worried that we’re going to keep pushing stuff off (even the little stuff) and then the baby is going to be born and we’re not ever going to get around to doing anything on our to-do list ever again… and then people are going to come over here and think we have no style (we do not, but I like to pretend that we do).
I wouldn’t say that I have any less anxiety now than I did this morning at 4am.  I talked to my sister in law about cribs last night via email, and I was really surprised to hear that although she started with a Pottery Barn Kids crib for her two older girls (around $600) she is now using a $100 Ikea crib for her third baby and has no financial restrictions.  She is someone who never really goes the cheap or unsafe route, and she thought that a couple of convertible cribs that I sent over to her were probably good choices $275-$400 range.  That made me feel a lot better.  A few weeks ago I was completely convinced that a good crib was going to cost us $900, I really have no idea why I even thought that since it wasn’t based on anything.
Yeah, I still have a lot of anxiety.  For every item I was able to tick off today, I found more hidden underneath.  Hopefully I’m not up at 4am again tomorrow, because even if I am, I’m going to have to get in the car and go to work.

About Laura

Working mom trying to balance life and baby.
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